Is it possible that past hurt is creating present pain?
Would you rather not ltake a chance on being hurt again or live with love always?
“For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. What we have received is not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may understand what God has freely given us.” – 1 Corinthians 2: 11-12
A trigger thought is a memory or a belief about something that causes a reaction from you. Usually it is not a loving or caring reaction but instead a defensive or aggressive one.
I have no idea why some things happened in my life but other things I have seen later. I bet you are the same way about your life.
God does what God does and if I am to be Free and truly a Loving being focused on Loving others and therefore being like Jesus at some point I have to accept even past hurt and pain as His gift.
Yes terrible things happened to me in the past but God allowed them. Yes they are still painful at times but God allowed them. Many of these things came from the pain of the other person but God allowed them.
Perhaps one reason they happened is for us to lean more on God.
Perhaps they happened so that we would be hungry and thirsty for Him.
Whatever the case once a person is “in Grace” and once they are a new creation they have received a new Spirit. This Spirit can’t be explained by worldly wisdom because it is not about me any longer; it’s about Love and about them!
A trigger thought will fire a round of anger or bitterness that will create more pain but most don’t realize it at the time. Then looking back further they see how much life and how many moments they have wasted from hurt and the hurt compounds.
Here is a meditation for you.
Find a time and a place where you probably wont be disturbed. Close your eyes and take several deep breaths to relax. As you are doing this get a picture of someone that has hurt you, just something small nothing major. See if you can sense the pain in them that caused them to hurt you and then see if you can hug them during that pain. As you get this picture of you hugging the person that caused you pain at the moment that they had the trigger pain do this:
Breathe in and say:
“The Spirit of God”
Breathe out and say:
“is in me!”
Practice this until you only feel love for the person that hurt you because they hurt you as a result of hurt they have. One point I have to keep bringing myself back to are the first 3 of the only 11 words I know for sure:
“GOD IS LOVE“
Stop the hurt and Start the Love!!